How can you put into words just how much someone means to you? Especially when that person grew for nine months inside your belly? There is nothing in the world I have experienced that cuts as deep as losing your child, your flesh and blood, someone you and the husband you love created together. People say that it is not natural to bury your child. Most of us expect that we will probably bury our parents, and perhaps even a spouse. But the natural order of things is that our children will grow up, have families and someday bury us.
In just over two weeks from now two families will be celebrating an anniversary. Those of us familiar with grief try to soften it by calling it the anniversary of their birth into heaven. And maybe that does give some comfort. And maybe down the road it will give me more. But right now I just feel like I'm going to shatter into a million tiny little pieces. I don't know how to make it through this. I know that somehow I will, I've done something simliar before. But for about 19 days I'm just going to remember to breathe in and breathe out and that is about all I plan on doing.
I love you, Nick, Ru and Audrey. And I will miss you forever!
In just over two weeks from now two families will be celebrating an anniversary. Those of us familiar with grief try to soften it by calling it the anniversary of their birth into heaven. And maybe that does give some comfort. And maybe down the road it will give me more. But right now I just feel like I'm going to shatter into a million tiny little pieces. I don't know how to make it through this. I know that somehow I will, I've done something simliar before. But for about 19 days I'm just going to remember to breathe in and breathe out and that is about all I plan on doing.
I love you, Nick, Ru and Audrey. And I will miss you forever!
