Four months ago tonight I married this wonderful man. Every time I start to blog I end up going back to see what I've already written. But not this time. I'm going to just write how I feel right now, today, at this very second. So I have no clue what I've blogged about Mike before. I also end up going back and writing the background so if anyone is reading it, they can understand today. Nope, not doing that either.
This wedding was a long time coming. Mike told me once that he knew shortly after we met that he was going to marry me. He was just waiting to be sure I was going to stick. Smart man. These past four months have been hard. They have been rough. Some days have even been hell. Most of that is because of me. The reasons behind that are going to be left for another blog. Right now I just want to say that four months ago today I woke up knowing I was getting married and that I was doing the right thing. There was no hesitation, no fear. I had waited a long time for this man to ask me.
In so many ways Mike has made so many of my dreams come true. We have a home. Mike would do anything in his power to make me happy. So he's let me come into this home and disrupt his life making it a place that I feel good about. I have loved changing things around, adding a 'woman's touch' and filling it with house plants. I enjoyed the little things. I love leaving for work and knowing I'm coming home to Mike. I love the drive home to our home. I love waking up next to him and spending a few minutes cuddling. I love ending each day with his arm wrapped around me. No matter how bad my day is, if I can end it with my head on his shoulder and his arm wrapped around me, it ends well. But I have found out the hard way that if things aren't good between us, I can't handle anything. The opposite is also true. If things are good between us, I can handle the rest of the world. (Note to self: come back and read this often).
Over the past year and a half I have seen Mike change and evolve. Tonight we ate dinner and he just left to go help his brother unload hay. He's tired, but he knew he was needed and he went. I have watched him open up and blossom and become such an incredible man. He still continues to surprise me with his actions, and I think he always will. He is so much more than almost anybody else realizes. And more than anything, when I'm not being stupid, he makes me happy. Enough said!
