My goal was to start writing in my blog again. I'm way behind, and there have been some major changes in my life lately. So here is my new goal. I will write something in my blog every day. It doesn't have to be long, it probably won't be brilliant and might not be interesting to anybody but me. It's just going to be the habit of writing every day that I'm working on.
So here goes for today. In a nutshell, the changes in my life are I got my hours cut at work to 20 a week, gave up my apartment and am now living with Lala again/ There are definitely pros and cons to this. I know the grandkids are glad I'm here until I make them clean their rooms, that is. And I hadn't realized how much of a hermit I've become since moving into the apartment. There were days I would go home and find any excuse not to leave for any reason. If I didn't stop at the store on my way, I made do without.
I have internet access here but no tv service. I have a bigger kitchen to cook in but have to be careful not to go back to my old eating habits. I have a huge bedroom but lots of stairs to get down to it.
A few days before I moved I was sitting on my bed feeling totally and completely sorry for myself. I'm 52 years old and can't keep a roof over my own head. The fact that there are thousands of people all over the country in the same boat didn't make me feel any better. So I had my pity party, ranted and raved, screamed at a couple of husbands because they're not here taking care of me or at least here to hold me when I get scared and cry.
And then I realized that I am truly blessed. When I told Lala and Spencer about my hours being cut and not being able to pay rent, both of them immediately said 'come live with me.' So I guess when times are black and gloomy and all seems to be lost, families are all that is left. And I am grateful for mine.
